my life as a star

new life

2009-04-26T22:17:15Z

New life

i'm now almost a college graduate. i have found that 4 years in college turns my stomach to think that it has changed me in so many unnoticeable ways. i'm still megan... but i feel different... i feel fresh and scared. i have all of this knowledge but no one but me cares. i feel like i'm changing (which i am) from day to day and everyday i meet someone new i grow a little bit.

i'm graduating. lee said i would be in this boat. there is a point where i am excited, i'm scared, i'm frantic. what do i feel? what will i feel? i'm going home will it go back to how it was when i was in high school? i sure hope not. like i said i've changed.

i've been taking pictures and it has been making me question reality a little bit. i can't wait to meet new people back home. i will miss the people here though. i will also miss my freedom that comes along with santa cruz.

i'm italian surprise surprise

2006-12-04T20:00:34Z

Australian
[x] you wear flip flops all year
[ ] you call flipflops thongs not flip flops
[x] you love a backyard barbie
[x] you know a barbie is not a doll
[ ] you love the beach
[x] sometimes you swear without realizing
[ ] you're a sports fanatic!!
[ ] you are tanned
[ ] you're a bit of a bogan
[x] you scratch your butt without shame
[ ] you have an australian something (thongs, shirt, phone sock, etc.)
Total= 5

Italian
[] the Sopranos is a great show.
[] your last name ends in a vowel
[x] your grandmother makes her own sauce
[x] you know how a real meatball tastes.
[] you know a lot of italian songs.
[x] you have dark hair and dark eye color
[x] you speak some italian.
[x] you are under 5'10''.
[x] pizza is the best food in the world.
[x] you talk with your hands.
Total= 7

Hispanic
[] you say member instead of REmember
[x] you speak spanish some!
[x] you love tacos.
[ ] yoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] you are dark skinned
[ ] you know what a Bodega is.
[ ] you talk fast.
[] you have had highlights or dyed your hair.
[x] you have darkhair/dark eyes
Total= 3

Russian
[ ] you say villian as: Vee-lon
[] you get short tempered
[x] you know of sombody named boris or natasha
[] white skinned
[ ] cold weather/snow is the best
[x] you get cold easily
[x] snow is fun for you
[ ] you get into contests often
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather
Total= 4

Irish
[] you think beer is the best
[] You have a bad temper.
[] Your last name starts with a Mc OR Murph or O' or Fitz or ends with a ly,on,un,an,ry.
[] you have blue or green eyes.
[x] you like the color green.
[] you have been to a st.pattys day party.
[] you have family from Ireland.
Total= 1

Black
[] you say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair
[x] you LIKE rap
[] you talk with slang
[X] you know how to shoot a gun
[] you think President George W. Bush is racist
[x] you like chicken
[x] you like watermelon
[x] you can dance
[] you can ‘sing’ gospel
[ ]Your parents said they found you in the jungle in Africa
Total=5

Asian
[] you have slanty eyes
[x] you like rice a lot
[] you are smart
[x] you have played the piano
[] you have family from asia
[] you have teeny feet
[x] you laugh sometimes covering your mouth
[] most people think your chinese
[] you call hurricanes typhoons
[] you go to Baulko
Total= 3

German
[x] you like bread
[ ] you think American Chocolate would be better with less Sugar
[x] you drink your soda without ice
[ ] you Speak German
[ ] you know what Schnitzel is and you love it
[ ] you are Catholic or Lutheran
[ ] you hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi
[x] you went to Kindergarten/Pre-school
[] you're over 5' 10"
Total= 3

Canadian
[x] you like/play/played hockey
[x] you love beer
[x] You say eh
[] you don't believe war is the answer
[] you know what poutine is
[] you speak some french
[] you love Tim Horton's
[] at one point you lived in a cabin
[] you watch Degrassi
Total= 3

the one you have more points in is the one you are
Repost this saying "According to this test i am...."

my favorite schiele

2006-11-15T17:52:35Z

my celeb look alikes haha

2006-10-31T07:35:22Z

my weekend/week

2006-10-30T20:55:39Z

this weekend was really nice on friday i was glad that school was over. i had a midterm in italian and i think it totally kicked my ass. once that was over my day didn't seem as bad.

my weekend-
- i got a new paif of shoes
- i saw tiffany at bath and body works and had coffee with her on her break.
- i got alias season 4 (finally)
- i watching infernal affairs with the gang and we all enjoyed it
- i felt kind of crappy all weekend (dizzy... lightheaded... tired... lazy....)and i'm kind of unsure why
- DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME.... best time of the year i swear. i called my mom and wished her a happy daylight savings time day and she was just as happy as i was ALSO i woke up this morning and it was light out
- me and frankie made crab rangoon. they turned out alright a little fishy for my tastes but there is always next time to try a different recipie

i don't really know what else to say. i'm really tired... and i'm really bored.... so i'm just totally blabbing.

HOW COOL!

2006-10-20T16:56:49Z

HowManyOfMe.com

There is:
1
person with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

shrugs

2006-10-09T16:35:58Z

buon giorno!

so last night me and my housemate lee figured out the details of our holloween get together/ party whatever you want to call it. i'm really looking forward to it because i've never actually planned anything like this before and it should be a lot of fun. i'm just hoping that my friends and lee's friends click well. we shall find out! anywho i need help figuring out what i want to be for holloween. this year i figured i would be adventerous and not be a cat... too predictable i suppose..... me and lee have come to the conclusion that i should be sydney bristow... for any of you who don't know who that is... your loss! haha it seems fitting i'm just unsure if people will know who i am. any other ideas?

school this year is good. i'm still working on doing better than last year. i'm in the libaray now because i have an hour and a half break before my next class. i should be doing italian homework but i think i'll wait for my next break. as for relationship stuff sure there has been drama and there has been that deadly pit feeling in my stomach but aside from that i'm good in that area. i'm really enjoying living off campus i think it's a ton of fun. i couldn't ask for a better housemate. we have yet to do the bonfire thing which i really would like to do but i know sometime in the future it will get done.

then this for fun

friend

2006-06-15T05:43:13Z

sometimes i wish i could be a better friend

stupid bio of aids

2006-06-12T19:44:52Z

so this teacher... i thought she was a really good teacher. apperantly she is tooooooo busy for her students so she takes 800 years to get back to me and have me take my final... okay so i take the final and everything is okay. whatever... i get an e-mail this morning saying that she has no record of me ever going to sections or doing my big final project which pretty much screws me in the class. i did my final project and i also turned it in early. i thought i was doing a good gesture when i turned it in early but my friggin ta was so irresponsible and had no idea what he was doing. i took all of the quizzes that marked my attendence she SHOULD have records of me somewhere!! ugh i am sooo mad right now i'm trying to study for my finals that are this week and i can't even do that. seriously this class has been teh biggest pain in the butt ever. stupid hospital... stupid ta.. and stupid teacher! bleh

so lame

2006-06-11T22:00:07Z

0-10 - Dirt poor
11-20 - Ghetto
21-30 - average
31-40 - Spoiled
41+ - FILTHY RICH

[x] Cell phone.
[x] Own phone line
[x] Own room.
[x] 2 story house (three stories really)
[] Hot tub
[] Guest room
[x] Computer in your room
[] TV in yor room
T O T A L: 5

[] Queen or bigger bed
[] More than 20 pairs of shoes
[] Expensive sunglasses.
[] Name brand wallet
[x] ipod (mp3 player)
[] PSP
[] XBox 360
[x] Nintendo DS
[] Gameboy Advance
T O T A L: 2

[] Basketball hoop
[] Air hockey table
[] Pool table
[] Ping pong table
[] Foose ball table
[] Trampoline
[] Own a snowboard.
[!!!] Own a surfboard i want oneeee!!
[] Own a skateboard
T O T A L: 0

[] Stereo in bedroom.
[] DVD player in room
[x] something from abercrombie and fitch
[] Gets $100+ each month
[x] Shops at AE (the sale rack)
[] owns something from Gucci or Prada
[] wears Lacoste
[] parents give you there credit card
T O T A L : 2

[x] Goes shopping at least once a week
[] Expensive cologne/perfume.
[x] IM
[x] Digital camera
T O T A L: 3

[] electric scooter
[] 4-wheeler
[] Guitar/drums
[x] Piano
[] Any other instrument
[] Hammock
[] Been on a cruise.
[] Traveled out of the country
[] Personal trainer
[x] Expensive jewelry
[] Met a celebrity
T O T A L: 2

[x] Straightener/curling iron.
[x] Been to a batting cage
[] $100+ on you right now
[x] Credit card
[] Been to Europe
[] Been to Hawaii
[] Been to NYC.
[] Been to Chicago.
TO T A L: 3

[] Sports car
[x] Pet
[x] Ranch or cabin (people say my house is like a cabiin :)
[] Been to 10+states in the US
[] 200+ buddies on myspace
T O T A L: 2

[x] Home cooked meal almost every day
[] Eat out almost every day
[] Been in a limo
[] Own a camcorder
[x] Own a laptop/computer.
TOTAL: 2

Complete Total: 21

yay for being average.

most lame thing about high school

2006-05-30T05:23:41Z

the fact we weren't able to wear tank tops that showed our bra straps... that was lame.

stolen from rachel

2006-04-27T18:19:51Z

Ask me a question about each of the following:

1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. LiveJournal

. . . no matter how rude, sexual, or confidential . . . just ask it!

Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked.

yea yea

2006-04-24T03:37:30Z

You scored as Loner. YOU HAVE NO SOCIAL LIFE! thats ok

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Loner

53%

Emo Kid

47%

Punk

47%

Geek/Nerd

47%

Goth

33%

Jock

33%

Hot

27%

"Ghetto"

13%

Stoner

13%

Prep

What Highschool Clique Do You Belong To?
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stolen from travis (birthday)

2006-04-13T01:51:42Z

Go to Wikipedia and look up your birth day (excluding the year). List Four facts, Three births and Two death in your journal, including the year.

February 8th

Events-
1692 - A doctor in Salem Village, Massachusetts Bay Colony declares that three teenage girls are under domination of Satan, leading to the Salem witch trials.

1855 - The Devil's Footprints mysteriously appear in southern Devon.

1924 - Death penalty: The first state execution using gas in the United States takes place in Nevada.

1998 - First female ice hockey game in Olympic history: Finland beats Sweden 6-0.

Births-
412 - Proclus, Greek philosopher (d. 487)

1720 - Emperor Sakuramachi of Japan (d. 1750)

1953 - Mary Steenburgen, American actress

Deaths-
1772 - Augusta of Saxe-Gotha, Princess of Wales

1856 - Agostino Bassi, Italian entomologist

mine hella sucks!

yay

2006-04-04T02:02:39Z

instead of raping my arm they rape my finger! yayyy

emo

2006-04-02T11:20:53Z

it's like wayyyy past my bedtime and i'm sooo tired but i just can't sleep. i have this really shitty feeling right now and it just won't go away. it's a feeling of dread and tiredness and doubt. bleh i go back to santa cruz tomorrow and i've packed a ton of crap that i'm not going to want to unpack when i get there. grey's anatomy is on tomorrow also... something to look foward to. i got season 5 of six feet under today... so pretty oh and i got a b in my astro class that i thought for sure i would fail.

hospitals, icky food, and my past week

2006-03-24T05:38:23Z

So the past weeks have been kind of a blur. i got a call from my doctor while i was in yoga class on monday saying that i needed to go into the doctor right away to get more tests done because the blood samples they took from me the previous week were irregular. this creeped me out. i went to the hospital and they did a bunch of body scans and all this stuff with big machines. i got to inhale gas and see my lungs on screen. that was pretty interesting. anyways it turned up that i had a pulminary embilism (sp) in other words i had a blood clot in my lungs. this creeped me out even more to the point where i went on one of those nonstop crying binges where whenever you go to talk you can't really talk because all you do is blurt out crying. after about 4 hours of sitting in the lab talking to my parents/other doctors on the phone, the nicest receptionist at the lab took me up where i needed to go to check in because they were going to admit me to the hospital. she knew i was scared and she said that she had a daughter my age that would be clueless about what to do like i was. my parents showed up around 8:30pm and my mom stayed with me from monday until sat. when i was released. that week was such a complete blur. for just the first two days i really didn't want to talk about my problem because of t hat spontainious crying thing but then after that i just mad whenever my mom would call someone and talk to them about it because i was so sick of hearing about it. the doctor we had was reallllyyy nice but he was so boring haha me and my mom both made fun of him after he left. that was a high point. by the end of the week lee and frankie had both come to see me and i was feeling a lot better because i could actually leave my room. lee brought me a bunch of clothes which was a total life saver because i didn't really think to pack undies on my way to yoga. frankie came on sat. and brought me and my mom REAL food. OH YEA.... i had the best hot dog while i was in there.... after 4 days of hospital food.... my mom went to 711 because the deli next door was closed and bought me a hotdog... it was friggin amazing! anywaysss that's the short version of my story.... i'll be on meds for the next 6 months to help thin out my blood and whatnot so no car accidents for me :)

stolen from kimmm

2006-03-10T03:29:02Z

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.

NO CHEATING.

1. How does the world see me?:
St. James Hotel- less than jake

2. Will I have a happy life?:
complainte de la butte- i don't know who

3. What do my friends really think of me?:
Nine inch nails- downward spiral

4. Do people secretly lust after me?:
brush the dustaway - in flames

5. How can I make myself happy?:
mordern world-less than jake

6. What should I do with my life?:
maroon 5- must get out

7. Will I ever have children?:
saves the day- at your funeral hahah

8. What is some good advice for me?:
dirty mouth- hot hot heat

9. How will I be remembered?:
rilo kiley- don't deconstruct

10. What is my signature dancing song?:
head automatica- razor

11. What do I think my current theme song is?:
alkaline trio- continental

12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
prince- i wanna be your lover haha

13. What song will play at my funeral?:
the dog song- grey's anatomy soundtrack hahaha oh man

14. What type of men/women do I like?:
queen- good old fashioned lover boy

15. What is my day going to be like tommorrow?:
fall out boy- saturday

bleh

2006-03-07T09:27:56Z

bleh my aim doesn't work... this sucks. BOOOOO anywho... i've been reading a lot lately.... now i'm reading the chronicles of narnia which i'm liking so far although i'm not to far in yet. i read rent girl before this and i really enjoyed that... good artwork and just a quirky read.

my bonsai is growing and yours isn't! ha!

i hate the enrollment system here at school. my next quarter classes are going to suck royally.! booo

i'm going to see anna nalick. woo!

kinda fun

2006-02-23T23:03:46Z

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Miss%20Megan%20Carll

i think that's the right link....

stolen yes yes i know
Finish the sentence-

My last ex was ... a great person

Maybe I should ... take a nap

I love ... watching movies, staring up at the stars when it's cold

I don't understand ... what the big deal is about things

People would say that I'm ... quiet

Love is ... nice if you know you've found it

Somewhere, someone is ... having an orgasm

I will always remember ... my first real boyfriend

Forever is ... a long way away

I never want to ... be so scared i cry

I think the current President ... needs a make over

When I wake up in the morning I am... groggy and quiet

Life is ... strange

My past ... makes me want to go back

I get annoyed when ... people give me the cold shoulder

Parties are for ... socalizing

I wish ... to find a nice place for me and lee next year that is within living amount of money

My dog is ... plump

Kisses are the worst when ... you don't mean it

Tomorrow I'm going to ... FRIDAAYY!!!! class then swim! woo

I really want ... to see my family

I have low tolerance for people who ... are immature and argue constantly

If I had a million dollars ... buy movies, games, and my family some nice things... ii would also pay back everyone i thought i owed something to

HEY EVERYONE!!!

2006-02-16T22:55:33Z

i'm doing an AIDS walk in santa cruz.... i need sponsers so if you want to sponser me (ANY donation will be accepted.... which means if you only give 5 bucks that's fine!) hit me up on AIM Grrkittymeow or you can leave a messege here! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEE sponser me :)

kittygoesgrr @ 2006-02-13T20:17:00

2006-02-14T04:26:29Z

Go to your page and list the last fifteen people who have commented you. If someone has commented twice, skip to the next new commentor

1.frankie
2.oscar
3.nate
4.shana
5.paul
6.ari
7.tiffany
8.vanessa
9.kalie
10.courtney
11.darrell
12.rachel
13.thomas
14.rolo
15. amber

Have you ever kissed 4? no not that i remember

Whats the fondest memory you have of 10: shopping in boston was awesome :)

Why are you friends with 9? were not really friends anymore.... i haven't talked with her in ages

When's the next time you're gonna see 6? not sure if i'll ever see her again

Tell something juicy about number 15: she....was a girl who i knew through another girl.... she was nice

What do you like about 8? she's amazing and we need to have a movie night because it keeps getting delayed!

Is number 1 attractive? of course

What was your first impression of 7? haha i THOUGHT she was night

Physically, what stands out with 3? the fact he's my cousin really stands out :)

What was 12's comment about? that she was happy i was hanging out with the group...

When and how did you meet 15? school in like...... freshman year highschool haha

Do you think 13 could kill someone? if he wanted to yes.... but i don't think he would

Is 11 your best friend? not so much anymore

Have you seen 5 naked? haha no

Has number 10 seen you naked? partially

Have you ever had a crush on 14? naw i love him though

Would you ever kiss 6? sure may be a little weird since i don't know her to well

Do you think has 2 a crush on you? naw we just understand each other

Who do you spend the most time with? number 1

my birthday among other things

2006-02-13T06:51:44Z

the 8th was my birthday for people that read my livejournal. 19.... woop de do i think i got more messeges on facebook from people i didn't really like than i expected. :) haha anyways. my birthday was pretty dull. i didn't do anything. the next day me and tiffany and lee went out for chinese food because tiffany's birthday is on the 10th. :) which is totally cool/weird. it was a nice dinner.... slow service but all together nice. lee bought me memoirs of a ghesia which i'm excited to read. i have to finish harry potter before i start it but i'm definatly looking foward to it. frankie bought me cinderella for my birthday which i have yet to watch because i'm not really in a light mood. and my parents and family mostly gave me money. my mom made me dinner last night for my birthday followed by this amazing dessert that i one day will make.

sat i went to wondercon with frankie. it was a neat con some ups and some downs. i ended up buying goodbye chunky rice which i hear is really sad hahah which is maybe a good thing i really like the artist craig thompson because his writing seems very honest. wondercon was fun i saw jj abrams speak about mission impossible 3 which was interesting. and i got to hear him answer questions.... he also seems very nice and down to earth.

on another note.... the comiccon has made me so sick of hearing about comics that i just don't really care for them right now. all i've been hearing about for the past month is comics and i dunno it just seems like i've heard it all. i know i haven't but i'm not an expert in comics and i don't really care to be. rant: like i was telling frankie i don't really see why everyone wants everyone to sign things..... things that are signed sell for more and unless you plan on stalking the famous person this person who signs a book or movie or whatever with his name is NEVER going to remember you. sureit means something to you and sure you can say oh so and so signed this.... but i dunno it just seems like signing your name is so impersonal and anyone could do it. i could sign an artists name and say that he signed it and no one would really know becaue it had no real meaning to them.... whatever i guess this goes along with being sick of the whole topic of comics.

bleh just been in a bad mood lately.... lots of school work and lots of stress of other things hanging over me. luckily school work is light this week minus my astro midterm.

surveys

2006-01-31T09:53:20Z

Your Kissing Purity Score: 29% Pure

You're not one to kiss and tell...

But word is, you kiss pretty well.

Kissing Purity Test

What Your Underwear Says About You

You have a lucky pair of underwear. And you wear it more than you should.

You're a closet exhibitionist who gets a thrill from being secretly naughty.

The Underwear Oracle

You Are A Friendly Ex

You and your ex are just friends - great friends really.
(At least that's what you keep telling yourself!)
While civility is a good thing, make sure you're not secretly wanting more...

What Type of Ex Are You?

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is creative and expressive.

With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"
You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...
Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-)

You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear.
Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing.
The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person.

Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life.
You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.
Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Your Stripper Song Is

Master and Servant by Depeche Mode

"There’s a new game
We like to play you see
A game with added reality
You treat me like a dog
Get me down on my knees"

Yawn, dancing is so boring without a little spice.

What Song Should You Strip To?

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

lots happened since when

2006-01-30T06:50:45Z

hello peoples. lots and lots to update about but chances are it'll be a shortie :)

two weekends ago i went ot berkely to visit renee and frankie and anthony with lee. we took a bus to a bus to the bart and we were there. friday night i went to my first frat party. hahaha this was very interesting seeing how frat parties aren't really my thing. i drank beers with renee which was very nice and i got to meet the people renee hangs out with. all in all it was a fun night. we finished the night off by getting top dog, it's this amazing hot dog place in downtown berkeley. renee paid thanks! :)

next day i hung out with frankie anthony and lee in the city. we went ot the asia art museum which i wasn't really to into because i had seen everything in there once previously with frankie. then we went to go eat. we ate at the meteron. i dunno i was kind of grumpy that day because i don't really care for the city all to much when it's supppperrr crowded. i did have one amazing enchillada though :) we went to china town also which wasn't that amaaazing because we didn't really go into any of the stores we just window shopped. we then went back to berkeley and had some awesom pizza and played guitar hero all night. that was fun. i then spent the night over frankie's and he drove me back to berkeley in the morning. i spent the whole day shopping alone which was really awesome because i needed a good shopping spree by myself out of santa cruz and santa rosa :)

last week was insane. i don't know how i manage to fill up my schedule with school things but i really do. me and lee worked out twice which was really nice, made me feel better.

this weekend was pretty fun. some things happened that i wasn't pleased about but that's all better now. anthony and frankie came down for the weekend. we ate lots of food played lots of games and just hung out like always.

i'm pretty bored now and i'm not really doing anything

shows i've been watching religiously:

joan of arcadia
grey's anatomy
felicity

movies i've seen:

match point
waterboys
underworld (the first one)
i've seen more i just don't really want to try and remember them

anywways the point of that cateorgy was to tell everyone to go see matchpoint... it was good

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