|stresses of everyday life
||[23 May 2011|07:38pm]
I've been working lately. since my last post i was just fostering kittens (which by the way i ended up keeping 2 of) and looking for careers in the animal field. I have since found not just one job, but two. i work one day a week at a slower paced more intimate practice in rohnert park and 4 other days a week in a fast paced santa rosa practice. i am currently working as a veterinary technician which may sound lovely and exotic... well actually yes it is. i really do enjoy the work although like some jobs, it does have it's woes. the pay is decent. living wage which will only go up which is nice. my parents constantly remind me that i am not making thousands of dollars and that tends to make me feel crappy about what i do. i know they do it out of love but sometimes it just doesn't seem that way. i won't let that get me down because it is more important for me to like my job then be miserable with what i do. About the job i am learning so much. i like one job more than the other, but the perks of one are better than the other. not sure if a private practice is something that i would want to do forever, but for now it is getting me through the program until i can decide what i want to specialize in. shelter work, research work, community involvement, certain types of medicine. all these things i can specialize in, but i can't really seem to pick something that i like.
on a new note.
life is good. I'm relaxed when I'm not stressed, and i have found that some things make me happier than others. something i miss from school are the racquetball courts. i miss the sound and the ability to go there whenever i please. i know i have my hobbies, but my hobbies have become a chore to follow up with. i wish i had a clone that i could bring out with me to do these hobbies so i didn't have to rely on someone else to be there. that would be lovely thanks. i guess the point of group hobbies is to make friends and socialize, but like those people who like to zone others out, this is what i want to do.
on a totally irrelevant note. i find writing with pencil and paper much more therapeutic than typing. this could be because i can doodle on the edges while I'm writing where with typing it is so black and white line by line.
|long time after school
||[04 Aug 2010|09:12pm]
school has been out for a year. i tend to write in this thing when i just need to vent. which is fine.
lets start off with this
i have ringworm. yea gross i know. i'm disgusted and it seems like i'm really the only one who wants it to go away. apparently it is very contagious and did i mention disgusting. makes me want to crawl into a large hole and never come out. tomorrow i plan on cleaning. cleaning everything. i hate cleaning but it has to be done. yuck
oh yes the reason i got ringworm is because i'm fostering kittens. 3 at forst one got adopted and now i have two. two kitties both with ringworm. oh joy. don't get me wrong i love them but i do with that this never really happened. purely because of the ringworm. the fostering has been a lot of fun.
i'm also going back to school. to vet tech school. don't be confused with vet school but rather vet tech school. i'm excited not looking forward to spending the money but still excited. i have a list of things i need to buy... well not really need but want to have for the near future and i just don't see it happening.
life is good usually just right now i'm down in the dumps. i think i'll stay here a while... or at least until ringworm goes away.
||[26 Apr 2009|03:11pm]
i'm now almost a college graduate. i have found that 4 years in college turns my stomach to think that it has changed me in so many unnoticeable ways. i'm still megan... but i feel different... i feel fresh and scared. i have all of this knowledge but no one but me cares. i feel like i'm changing (which i am) from day to day and everyday i meet someone new i grow a little bit.
i'm graduating. lee said i would be in this boat. there is a point where i am excited, i'm scared, i'm frantic. what do i feel? what will i feel? i'm going home will it go back to how it was when i was in high school? i sure hope not. like i said i've changed.
i've been taking pictures and it has been making me question reality a little bit. i can't wait to meet new people back home. i will miss the people here though. i will also miss my freedom that comes along with santa cruz.
|i'm italian surprise surprise
||[04 Dec 2006|08:00pm]
[x] you wear flip flops all year
[ ] you call flipflops thongs not flip flops
[x] you love a backyard barbie
[x] you know a barbie is not a doll
[ ] you love the beach
[x] sometimes you swear without realizing
[ ] you're a sports fanatic!!
[ ] you are tanned
[ ] you're a bit of a bogan
[x] you scratch your butt without shame
[ ] you have an australian something (thongs, shirt, phone sock, etc.)
 the Sopranos is a great show.
 your last name ends in a vowel
[x] your grandmother makes her own sauce
[x] you know how a real meatball tastes.
 you know a lot of italian songs.
[x] you have dark hair and dark eye color
[x] you speak some italian.
[x] you are under 5'10''.
[x] pizza is the best food in the world.
[x] you talk with your hands.
 you say member instead of REmember
[x] you speak spanish some!
[x] you love tacos.
[ ] yoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] you are dark skinned
[ ] you know what a Bodega is.
[ ] you talk fast.
 you have had highlights or dyed your hair.
[x] you have darkhair/dark eyes
[ ] you say villian as: Vee-lon
 you get short tempered
[x] you know of sombody named boris or natasha
 white skinned
[ ] cold weather/snow is the best
[x] you get cold easily
[x] snow is fun for you
[ ] you get into contests often
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather
 you think beer is the best
 You have a bad temper.
 Your last name starts with a Mc OR Murph or O' or Fitz or ends with a ly,on,un,an,ry.
 you have blue or green eyes.
[x] you like the color green.
 you have been to a st.pattys day party.
 you have family from Ireland.
 you say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair
[x] you LIKE rap
 you talk with slang
[X] you know how to shoot a gun
 you think President George W. Bush is racist
[x] you like chicken
[x] you like watermelon
[x] you can dance
 you can ‘sing’ gospel
[ ]Your parents said they found you in the jungle in Africa
 you have slanty eyes
[x] you like rice a lot
 you are smart
[x] you have played the piano
 you have family from asia
 you have teeny feet
[x] you laugh sometimes covering your mouth
 most people think your chinese
 you call hurricanes typhoons
 you go to Baulko
[x] you like bread
[ ] you think American Chocolate would be better with less Sugar
[x] you drink your soda without ice
[ ] you Speak German
[ ] you know what Schnitzel is and you love it
[ ] you are Catholic or Lutheran
[ ] you hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi
[x] you went to Kindergarten/Pre-school
 you're over 5' 10"
[x] you like/play/played hockey
[x] you love beer
[x] You say eh
 you don't believe war is the answer
 you know what poutine is
 you speak some french
 you love Tim Horton's
 at one point you lived in a cabin
 you watch Degrassi
the one you have more points in is the one you are
Repost this saying "According to this test i am...."
||[30 Oct 2006|12:38pm]
this weekend was really nice on friday i was glad that school was over. i had a midterm in italian and i think it totally kicked my ass. once that was over my day didn't seem as bad.
- i got a new paif of shoes
- i saw tiffany at bath and body works and had coffee with her on her break.
- i got alias season 4 (finally)
- i watching infernal affairs with the gang and we all enjoyed it
- i felt kind of crappy all weekend (dizzy... lightheaded... tired... lazy....)and i'm kind of unsure why
- DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME.... best time of the year i swear. i called my mom and wished her a happy daylight savings time day and she was just as happy as i was ALSO i woke up this morning and it was light out
- me and frankie made crab rangoon. they turned out alright a little fishy for my tastes but there is always next time to try a different recipie
i don't really know what else to say. i'm really tired... and i'm really bored.... so i'm just totally blabbing.
||[09 Oct 2006|09:34am]
so last night me and my housemate lee figured out the details of our holloween get together/ party whatever you want to call it. i'm really looking forward to it because i've never actually planned anything like this before and it should be a lot of fun. i'm just hoping that my friends and lee's friends click well. we shall find out! anywho i need help figuring out what i want to be for holloween. this year i figured i would be adventerous and not be a cat... too predictable i suppose..... me and lee have come to the conclusion that i should be sydney bristow... for any of you who don't know who that is... your loss! haha it seems fitting i'm just unsure if people will know who i am. any other ideas?
school this year is good. i'm still working on doing better than last year. i'm in the libaray now because i have an hour and a half break before my next class. i should be doing italian homework but i think i'll wait for my next break. as for relationship stuff sure there has been drama and there has been that deadly pit feeling in my stomach but aside from that i'm good in that area. i'm really enjoying living off campus i think it's a ton of fun. i couldn't ask for a better housemate. we have yet to do the bonfire thing which i really would like to do but i know sometime in the future it will get done.
then this for fun
||[08 Oct 2006|08:18pm]
1) 3 things that annoy you:
1. stupid people that don't move back on the bus
2. drivers that honk at you and it's their fault
3. not being able to understand something
2) are you in a complicated relationship?
mehh no not really
3) Do you hate more than 3 people?:
4 Favorite candy bar
6) Have you ever tripped someone?
7) Least favorite school subject?:
i don't know really... i'm not enjoying writing on new media so far
8) How many pairs of shoes do you own?:
3 or 4
9) Do you own a Britney Spears CD?:
10) Have you ever thrown up in public?:
if you call in public in front of kalies house at 2 in the morning yea
11) Name one thing that is always on your mind:
12) Favorite genre of music?:
emo.... poppy punk
13) What is your zodiac sign?:
14) What time were you born?:
i used to know
15)Do you like beer?
16) Have you made a prank phone call?
when i was like 10 years old
17) What is the most embarassing CD you own?
none they all rule
18) Are you sarcastic?:
19) What are your favorite colors?:
pink and green.... together :)
20) How many watches do you own?:
two i only wear one though
21) Summer or winter?
22) Is anyone in love with you?
23) Favorite color to wear?:
black and green
24) Pepsi or Sprite?:
26) Where is your second home?:
my parents house in penngrove
27) Have you ever slapped someone?:
29) How many lamps are in your bedroom?:
30) How many video games do you own?:
31) What was your first pet?:
umm... the first one i can remember was my cat mooch... we also had some fish a bearded dragon a ferret a tarentula taco the other cat and a dog.... so take your pick
32)Where do you want to live when you're older?
far far away.... but close
33) Do looks matter?:
34) Do you use chapstick?:
yea but i don't go out of my way to put it on
35) Name 3 teachers from high school:
mrs. smith, mrs. jackson, mr. garrett
36) American Eagle or Abercrombie?:
37) Are you too forgiving?:
38) How many children do you want?:
39) Do you own something from Hot Topic?:
40) Favorite breakfast meal?:
waffles with jam and butter
41) Do you own a gun?:
42) Ever thought you were in love?:
43) When was the last time you cried?
44) What did you do 3 nights ago?:
friday i had mad school then played raquetball with lee and worked out till around 7 at night then came home ate something and frankie came over and we watched a metal dvd
45) Olive Garden?
never been there
46) Have you ever called your teacher mommy?
no but i've heard people do it... it's funny
47) Have you ever been in a castle?:
megs meg anything starting with meg basically
49) Do you know anyone named Bertha?
berta yes... berto yes but bertha no
50) Ever been to Kentucky?
no why would i want to go there?
51) Do you own something from Banana Republic?:
52) Are you thinking about somebody right now?
53) Ever called somebody Boo?:
54) Do you own a diamond ring?
nope maybe someday
55)Do you want to witness a tornado?
yea but not first hand...
56) Are you happy with your life right now?:
some things could be better but in general yes
57)Do you like your hair?:
58) Does anyone have a crush on you?:
60) What were you doing in May of 1994?
i can't even remember what i was doing last week
61) Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD?:
62) McDonalds or Wendys?
64) Are you closer to your mother or father?:
65) Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex?:
wrists and style
66) Are you afraid of the dark?
67) Have you ever eaten paste?
no... why would you do that?
68) Do you own a webcam?:
at my other home yes
69) Have you ever stripped?:
70) Ever broke a bone?:
71) Are you religious?:
72) Do you chat on AIM often?:
not as much as i used to
73) Pringles or Lays?:
corn chips with a hint of lime
74) Have you ever broken someones heart?:
i dunno normally after you break someone's heart they don't stick around to talk about it with you
76) Full House or The Brady Bunch?:
77) Did you like your high school guidance counselor?:
no i really didn't like her
78) Has anyone ever called you a tease?
79) Do you have a birth mark?
yep on my thigh
80) Do you own a car?
81) Can you cook?:
i like to think i can
82) How many houses have you lived in?
one and now an apartment
83) Do you text message often?:
i try not to because it costs money
84) Money or love?
money can't buy love
85) Do you have any scars?:
86) What do you want more than anything right now?:
i don't know actually
87) Do you enjoy scary movies?
88) Relationships or one night stands?:
89) Big Red or Juicy Fruit?:
90) Do you enjoy greasy food?:
depends how i feel
91) Have you seen all the Rocky movies?:
92) Do you own a box of crayons?:
they are on my desk right now
93) Ever had sex in a public place?:
no not really
94) Who was the last person you said i love you to?
95) Who was the last person that made you mad?:
96) Who was the last person that made you cry?
97) Who was the last person that made you laugh?:
98)Who was the last person that texted you?
99)Who was the last person that called you?
100) Who's your cell phone provider?
||[14 Jun 2006|10:42pm]
sometimes i wish i could be a better friend
|stupid bio of aids
||[12 Jun 2006|12:40pm]
so this teacher... i thought she was a really good teacher. apperantly she is tooooooo busy for her students so she takes 800 years to get back to me and have me take my final... okay so i take the final and everything is okay. whatever... i get an e-mail this morning saying that she has no record of me ever going to sections or doing my big final project which pretty much screws me in the class. i did my final project and i also turned it in early. i thought i was doing a good gesture when i turned it in early but my friggin ta was so irresponsible and had no idea what he was doing. i took all of the quizzes that marked my attendence she SHOULD have records of me somewhere!! ugh i am sooo mad right now i'm trying to study for my finals that are this week and i can't even do that. seriously this class has been teh biggest pain in the butt ever. stupid hospital... stupid ta.. and stupid teacher! bleh
||[11 Jun 2006|02:55pm]
0-10 - Dirt poor
11-20 - Ghetto
21-30 - average
31-40 - Spoiled
41+ - FILTHY RICH
[x] Cell phone.
[x] Own phone line
[x] Own room.
[x] 2 story house (three stories really)
 Hot tub
 Guest room
[x] Computer in your room
 TV in yor room
T O T A L: 5
 Queen or bigger bed
 More than 20 pairs of shoes
 Expensive sunglasses.
 Name brand wallet
[x] ipod (mp3 player)
 XBox 360
[x] Nintendo DS
 Gameboy Advance
T O T A L: 2
 Basketball hoop
 Air hockey table
 Pool table
 Ping pong table
 Foose ball table
 Own a snowboard.
[!!!] Own a surfboard i want oneeee!!
 Own a skateboard
T O T A L: 0
 Stereo in bedroom.
 DVD player in room
[x] something from abercrombie and fitch
 Gets $100+ each month
[x] Shops at AE (the sale rack)
 owns something from Gucci or Prada
 wears Lacoste
 parents give you there credit card
T O T A L : 2
[x] Goes shopping at least once a week
 Expensive cologne/perfume.
[x] Digital camera
T O T A L: 3
 electric scooter
 Any other instrument
 Been on a cruise.
 Traveled out of the country
 Personal trainer
[x] Expensive jewelry
 Met a celebrity
T O T A L: 2
[x] Straightener/curling iron.
[x] Been to a batting cage
 $100+ on you right now
[x] Credit card
 Been to Europe
 Been to Hawaii
 Been to NYC.
 Been to Chicago.
TO T A L: 3
 Sports car
[x] Ranch or cabin (people say my house is like a cabiin :)
 Been to 10+states in the US
 200+ buddies on myspace
T O T A L: 2
[x] Home cooked meal almost every day
 Eat out almost every day
 Been in a limo
 Own a camcorder
[x] Own a laptop/computer.
Complete Total: 21
yay for being average.
|stolen from rachel
||[27 Apr 2006|11:18am]
Ask me a question about each of the following:
. . . no matter how rude, sexual, or confidential . . . just ask it!
Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked.
|stolen from travis (birthday)
||[12 Apr 2006|06:40pm]
Go to Wikipedia and look up your birth day (excluding the year). List Four facts, Three births and Two death in your journal, including the year.
1692 - A doctor in Salem Village, Massachusetts Bay Colony declares that three teenage girls are under domination of Satan, leading to the Salem witch trials.
1855 - The Devil's Footprints mysteriously appear in southern Devon.
1924 - Death penalty: The first state execution using gas in the United States takes place in Nevada.
1998 - First female ice hockey game in Olympic history: Finland beats Sweden 6-0.
412 - Proclus, Greek philosopher (d. 487)
1720 - Emperor Sakuramachi of Japan (d. 1750)
1953 - Mary Steenburgen, American actress
1772 - Augusta of Saxe-Gotha, Princess of Wales
1856 - Agostino Bassi, Italian entomologist
mine hella sucks!
||[03 Apr 2006|07:02pm]
instead of raping my arm they rape my finger! yayyy
||[02 Apr 2006|04:17am]
it's like wayyyy past my bedtime and i'm sooo tired but i just can't sleep. i have this really shitty feeling right now and it just won't go away. it's a feeling of dread and tiredness and doubt. bleh i go back to santa cruz tomorrow and i've packed a ton of crap that i'm not going to want to unpack when i get there. grey's anatomy is on tomorrow also... something to look foward to. i got season 5 of six feet under today... so pretty oh and i got a b in my astro class that i thought for sure i would fail.
|hospitals, icky food, and my past week
||[23 Mar 2006|09:29pm]
So the past weeks have been kind of a blur. i got a call from my doctor while i was in yoga class on monday saying that i needed to go into the doctor right away to get more tests done because the blood samples they took from me the previous week were irregular. this creeped me out. i went to the hospital and they did a bunch of body scans and all this stuff with big machines. i got to inhale gas and see my lungs on screen. that was pretty interesting. anyways it turned up that i had a pulminary embilism (sp) in other words i had a blood clot in my lungs. this creeped me out even more to the point where i went on one of those nonstop crying binges where whenever you go to talk you can't really talk because all you do is blurt out crying. after about 4 hours of sitting in the lab talking to my parents/other doctors on the phone, the nicest receptionist at the lab took me up where i needed to go to check in because they were going to admit me to the hospital. she knew i was scared and she said that she had a daughter my age that would be clueless about what to do like i was. my parents showed up around 8:30pm and my mom stayed with me from monday until sat. when i was released. that week was such a complete blur. for just the first two days i really didn't want to talk about my problem because of t hat spontainious crying thing but then after that i just mad whenever my mom would call someone and talk to them about it because i was so sick of hearing about it. the doctor we had was reallllyyy nice but he was so boring haha me and my mom both made fun of him after he left. that was a high point. by the end of the week lee and frankie had both come to see me and i was feeling a lot better because i could actually leave my room. lee brought me a bunch of clothes which was a total life saver because i didn't really think to pack undies on my way to yoga. frankie came on sat. and brought me and my mom REAL food. OH YEA.... i had the best hot dog while i was in there.... after 4 days of hospital food.... my mom went to 711 because the deli next door was closed and bought me a hotdog... it was friggin amazing! anywaysss that's the short version of my story.... i'll be on meds for the next 6 months to help thin out my blood and whatnot so no car accidents for me :)